Thankful

My heart is so heavy as I'm typing. It's actually felt this way for the last few days, but tonight there is different kind of deepness to it. I can't figure out where the weight is coming from. Maybe it's the reality that two great people aren't here this time and how much I wish I could see them again, or maybe my lack of sleep along with the rainy day has caused a sadness to bubble up in me. It hit me tonight after talking with one of the kids about how much he misses his mom that he more than likely will probably never see her again because he is afraid to return back to his abusive father. I began to feel his pain and ache because yes I may miss my mom, but I still have the opportunity to see her again and even if he wanted to see her again, finding her might be the biggest challenge. It brightened my soul when he began talking about how much she loved church and God because he too has this much needed Hope inside his heart. There will come a day when they meet again, whether it be here on earth or in our permanent home with God. 

Along with a heavy heart, I have absolutely no idea what day it is. Time goes so fast here and all the days blend together. Right now the Hanleys (the main missionary family) are in the states visiting family and friends. All has been normal since they've been gone except for the fact that the city decides to turn the power off when light is most needed, bed time. Trying to get a three year old and baby to sleep while there is no power and with the sound traveling everywhere makes it impossible some nights. I've never heard "tengo miedo" (I'm scared) or so many screams coming from Yinancia's room so much in my life, but despite the frustrations there have been some fun/ awkward memories made ;) 

**Fiesta night with no power= lots of sugar and dancing :)**

~I'm thankful for how bright the stars and moon become when the whole city loses power.

~I'm thankful for the bonding time spent reading Yinancia back to sleep during the nights the city loses their mind and turns the power off when it's most needed.

~I'm thankful for the cold dribbling shower. It's refreshing :)

~I'm thankful for being able to use 3 languages in 1 sentence.

~I'm thankful for the rainy days that bring cool breezes.

~I'm thankful for the frustration of disobedient children because it means these kids are just like any other children no matter where they have come from. 

~I'm thankful to be living with a baby and Jenna despite the early morning wakeup cries :) 

~I'm thankful that the same God who loves me and gave His son for me, loves these children and is giving me His love for them. 

*I'm also thankful for chapped lips from giving so many kisses*