Guys, life is hard.
Over the last few weeks, I have been struggling with old habits and old feelings. I have felt useless, and definitely a lot less worthy than "Gold", but ever since this past summer I have been making declarations using verses and passages from the Bible and declaring them over my life or others. It gives a whole new look on the love God truly has for us. His word is truth and life, and in this perfection, image crazed society we live in in America, it can break you down. I know it definitely has for me, but a few weeks ago I began writing all the truths I could think of how I am truly seen in the eyes of God. After all, He created me and chose me to be one of His many daughters and coheirs with Christ so I must be worth a whole lot more than gold, right?!
Here is the passage I found in my journal:
"The Lord stands near me. He strengthens me. He is my refuge and ever present help when I face troubles. His ways are greater than mine. He is jealous for my love and calls me His bride. He thinks I am beautiful, and even to die for. He sees no flaw in me because I am His.
I am loved and wanted by someone who I continuously find myself turning from. He calls me by name, and has made my ashes into beauty. The Lord has given me beautiful feet to spread the good news of all that He has done, and to make love known to those who know no love. He watches over me, and walks before me and beside me. Whom shall I fear?
He is my protector and my deliver, and in Him I will trust all of my days."
The devil has been getting in my head and succeeding at making me feel useless and confused, but through Christ we are overcomers (Mandisa says it best in her song ;) ) and more powerful than all the evil in this world and out of this world combined. The devil is constantly on the prowl and attacking, and he sure does know my weaknesses, but I am strong and loved and he can never take that away from me. I am continuing to pray for wisdom and strength and daily fighting the desire to be part of this world, but there is far greater joy ahead than what lies here before our puny human eyes. I am also praying for comfort and understanding for the ones closest to me in these next few months as God is giving me another beautiful opportunity to be His tangible love outside of the context I live in now :)
"Blessed is she who believed that there would be a fulfillment of what was spoken to her from the Lord." Luke 1:45
